A dear friend gave me the word "contained" tonight. It is the perfect word. Two weeks from today, I will be greeting my sweetheart who will be arriving essentially to send me off to Vermont. I have been having dreams full of anxiety around what it is- how it is I will use my time away....to really say something. I have spent a significant amount of time containing my emotions- which unfortunately I had come to equate with weakness, craziness, out of control. I have been containing my anger(less lately, thank god). I have been containing myself creatively, as I connected great progress in art with the demise of my marriage.
So, now, how to get UN-contained- set free- full of life and absent of fear?! Just keep going. I have learned in my years of exercising the creative process that when all is dead and boring in that regard- you better just make something.
so little by little, my brain is coming back to life. I find myself wishing i had one of those tiny tape recorders everywhere i am as words or phrases or materials file their way into my thoughts. This space will be where I make time to update you, my friends and family on this particular adventure back to a life of art-making. Thanks for loving me.
this is gorgeous. thanks for sharing. glad to be a part of your art making and your adventures. i may start one of my own. here's to the yellow brick road.
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